I may have seem to win the argument today but after i thought about, it your points really does make some sense. I guess I am expecting too much, “good” teacher is just a very subjective thing. Teachers are after all human bound to err like any of the other students. So i acknowledge it, I assumed something out of someone as a necessity when I cant even do it just simply bcos the person is more experienced than me. So you win this time but don’t be too smug about it :)

LOL fine its a long time since  I have been posting so I shall post one today.

  Over the coming weeks as the exams are nearing I constantly ask myself if I am getting too materialistic or too concerned about my grades. I was never really good at my grades till I was in sec3 and I was in SSS barely passing for most subjects. I admit I was really lazy then but it did not really bother me that i was not performing. Then after my huge leap in grades during Year 3 it has pushed me forward, however my expectations went up with it, I desperately tried to retain my grades even up to today and I guess i studied much harder than i did before. So now I guess I am more grade oriented than before but is it necessarily a bad thing?

  Recently I have always been discussing on what we would be in the future, some of them were saying they would follow their passions and only a handful of us said we aim to earn lots of money in the future. Most people would call it materialistic. Yes it may be, but isn’t it just realistic at the same time? Nothing is free in this world passion for a job may be important but when you think closely if it is not enough to support the ideal lifestyle you have in your mind, you will not be as happy as you hope to be. Another thing is to have a happy family, yes that is important too, but isn’t earning enough money all to support your family as well? Isn’t it to make them happy? I am not completely disregarding the fact that we should not spend time at all with our family and should concentrate 24/7 on our job. Of course there must be time set aside for you to spend with your family, that is a completely reasonable argument. But what I am trying to say is that earning money is not such a bad ideal after all, is it?

   So I guess this was probably the push for me, I want to go into business especially in the banking sector. The reason I work hard is to realize those ideals. For me I need far goals in order to push myself I can’t ask myself to study because i aim for this GPA it means nothing but if you relate it to how you will fare in your own future you will realize how important it is. 

  Another point is when we achieve and had that taste of success it becomes like a black hole which pulls u into an endless cycle. Yes its just like a exponential graph where there is no limit. Each time you achieve higher you will tell yourself to retain or improve, but isn’t that just part and parcel of your life? But when will we ever reach the peak, I guess we will never really find out will we? Can we escape from this cycle and tell ourselves I don’t mind my grades dropping and I am totally fine with it even if its a huge gap from the previous grade? So i guess we are all stuck in that exponential graph where our abilities increases over time.

  There are loopholes in everyone ideals, what you do will not always completely be similar to what you think, the same goes for me but I want to work towards that ideal and achieve the closest possibility to it. So screw Hannah Montana and her song about the best of both worlds, the world is not so perfect that you get the best of every aspect in your life, there must be a balance and certain sacrifices. The choice remains with you and what world you want to live in but you can be sure that your world will never be as perfect as that of a fairy tale.

  I guess it has kinda been a really productive year so far. Sorry for the lack of posts i guess I am kinda worried about the common tests too. Wanted to talk about grades and stuff but I shall leave it to after the common tests.

  I guess the past few study sessions has been a really fun and great experience for me. Centerstage was just ok…

  Anyways we are gonna have a band!!! I am kinda hyped up about it and stuff. Aston rocked, they are rily dam good (THX for the recommendation :) ) But we are so gonna rock more! Ok maybe not very realistic hahas. Ya but you should seriously check them out, its kinda OMG, i guess.

  Also dunno if the CCA thing will work out, but if we have a CCA den wouldn’t we be able to go for MUN or something on official basis? :) IDK whether it will work but we can give it a shot. 

  Anyways I kinda guess these things are impt for me cause is the last year together isn’t it? All the great memories and everything with everyone. I guess the reason I wanted all these things to work out is because maybe there is a hope for the group of us to keep together even though we are in different classes, Its only a hope but still, ya i guess it would be really good if it works out. I mean I kinda like this class a lot and the people around me, not that I don’t like 2H or choir (U guys rock too :) ).  I mean for me bonds are meant to be kept even if people are far apart, simply cause they are bonds and are something to be cherished I guess. 

  But staying together is another hard thing (shall talk about it some other time 2). IDK but I still think it would be great if the group of us can stay together even against the flows of time. 

  Random tot: But now i think 4-glory is kinda nice :)

  Anyways tot of it le my class-t name shall be glacees blanche. I shall cr8 a new ftx account too! :) Back to studying :)

  Time for another act “cheem” post.

  Noticed that whenever we do a good deed, you will always have this bubbly feeling inside of you, like you just made someone’s day. But what constitutes a good deed or rather is our good deeds always the right thing to do?

  Puzzling? Yes I think so too, from young it was always told to us in fairy tales that there is a clear line between what is right and what is wrong, but as you grow up this line slowly fades into oblivion.

  For example, lets say there is this thief and he burgles someone’s house, the first reaction we get is that he is a bad man, someone who is a misfit in society, the black sheep. But lets say he did it to feed his five kids and wife at home and was desperate as he could not find any jobs or source of income. Is that right or wrong? By law we have to punish this guy for it serves as an example and warning. If we were to let this person go off scott free what sort of example does it set for future cases, does that mean anyone can rob so as long as they got 5 kids? But if it comes from a compassionate point of view, what he is doing is just because he cares for his family, how could he possibly let his 5 innocent little kids die because of his inability to earn sufficient income for the family. So is what he is doing right or wrong? There is no  definite answer to that, is there? You may have made a stand but there will always be some other with an opposing view, so how do we classify such a person?

  Lets say, revenge. You kill someone because he killed a close person to you while drink driving and went unpunished (This is just an example, don’t tink its rily possible). So by killing him are you wrong, aren’t u just trying to seek justice which is at the same time a right thing. Most third parties will say that it is obviously immoral and a very bad thing to do, but imagine if it was your close one, the immense pain you would have felt and the mindless rage you experienced when you know this killer went unpunished.

  Also, if I am not wrong I told this person this in the MRT before. Let’s say you give up a seat to an old person. You may think this is a morally correct thing to do, but have you ever thought that some by acting this way you are acknowledging that he is old and the person may not really like it. Okay, maybe “as long as someone needs it more than you you should give up your seat”. But what if it was a slightly obese lady instead. Thinking she is pregnant you offer your seat, how would she feel? It may seem like you are not wrong because it is a misconception, but how would she feel especially if she was already very self-concious. So does that make it right or wrong?

  Next moving on to people. There is no good or bad people everything depends on one’s perception of the person. Just like now, why do we use protagonist and antagonist rather than good and evil. When we dislike a person, the reason is usually because there is a certain quality of the person you cannot stand something that just clashes with your personality, but that does not mean that in everyone eyes he is bad. Lets say a person very concern about his or her personal image. For some people, it is just excessive vanity and the self-centered image this person portrays will make you dislike him or her, but to others this is just self-pride which is a very positive thing. There is no good or bad person it just depends on whether you like or dislike this person.

  So ever paused to think whether what good deeds you did before was actually good, I am doing it now :) But does that mean because our good deeds may not be totally correct and we should not do it, that is just bullshit. I mean if everyone begins to use this as an excuse than this world would just be selfish. If you have always thought that it was a good deed continue and persist with it, because in there is obviously a higher percentage of good compared to the bad it is just not 100% good, in the end it just weighs down to how we weigh a particular thing before determining its nature is it not?

  But, what I truly learnt is that there is many different perspectives in life. What is good or perfect to you doesn’t mean it will apply to others. You can choose to protect your views and insist on your own style but yet you must learn to accept other perspectives as well, there is no absolute truth in whatever we do and everything has a percentage of both sides it just depends on how we weigh it. To me god is the absolute truth but towards others this may not be the case and we must learn to respect their views as well.  

  If everyone in the world has the same opinion, it just wouldn’t be fun to argue anymore would it?

  Firstly, happy birthday to all those who have their birthday today. Dillon, my great senior. Mr Kwek, the nice teacher and Wangzhi, the cool one. LOL funny descriptions kinda think their a little weird. Sorry mind not functioning rily well at this time of the day.

  Ok, i shall not be philosophical today zq. I shall just talk abt my day. Ya anyways, so after a very boring day at school (CME was okay tho y do every1 say its boring?)where Mrs.Tan made me stand in front waiting for someone to give some counter argument thingy… hers wasn’t even logical. 

  So went to buy E______ something with Chester and ZQ.

  I didn’t kno any1 othr then me play spore so it was kinda a shock.  

  They totally scammed me by saying they want to make a bear. An overpriced bear?! Can u believe tat! Okay anyways, so we were jking lyk crap lyk always, den dey brought up the map incident. It goes lyk tis I saw a map which had a lot of green spaces first ting i associated wif is grass, so I say cut through den dey say green doesnt represent grass. It doesn’t? So misleading the government shd rily revise their maps. Ok kidding. OK we went to the cool shop tat we tot chester would rily lyk , also went to the action figure and sword shop.

  We den saw tis guy dancing (X box kinect) Chester was like laughing at him, cos he lyk quite buff. At first it was quite funny cause he is dancing to a female dance but after he changed it became kinda cool. Otw home, chester prank call erhmm, shan’t go into detail. Ended up buying sth kinda cool i tink hope he likes it.

  P.S. No more onion rings for me its not as gd as it was b4 :(

  I accidentally deleted a very long post i was about to post, but it mysteriously disappeared. Lazy to do another one now :((((((((((((